Disposable Family

it was the best of times
it was the worst of times
we laugh together we cry together
but thats family right?
a family that prays together stays together
so lets pray for the day the drugs took my mother away
memories of the hurt i could never throw away
waited up all night she never came home
birthdays came and went she never picked up the phone
never knew what it was like to be loved
never been taught how to love myself
stripped of my chances to succeed by the woman who claimed to be my mother
but thats acceptable right?
we are family
A family is nothing without hope
so lets hope for the day that my father will show his face
be a real man and fill my empty space
he abandoned his responsibilities to me
so he oculd live a life of his own
never stopping to consider the
effect it would have on mine
he's only my blood not my family
the difference between the two is i cant have a bond with the blood i never knew
a bond that can't be broken or thrown away
so lets talk about the bond between my brothers and sisters
memebers of the same turmoil that i've endured
not biological but blood couldn't make us closer
drawn to the streets because we lacked a family structure
so we created one
one that can't be thrown away
we are products of our enviornment
children who had no childhood
still wet behind the ears but forced to fend for ourselves
some call us a gang but we call ourselves a family
so lets take away the pain that comes along with families
because its damaged me so much already
my potiential doubted
my freedom threatened
my dreams unknown
so lets bring back the love that i never knew
because my family threw it away before i could
never had the trust to be involved in a realationship
never had the chance to grow as a person
forced into the real world i unconciously
erased my innocence and replaced it with sin
so lets pray for the mothers who have lost their way
hope for the fathers who are never known
help the brothers and sisters
just dont throw my family away because all i have left is
resentment