quesions of fate

There have been
many times that
i've wanted to
break down and ask God
why?
Why have we been placed in a world with so many temptaions
that hell is inevitable
now a days even
the preists are hypocrits
so what are we to do?
How can i walk around
living in fear of going to hell
when no one else is?
I've been living in sin
for a number of years
so even after i repent
where will i go?
will it be heaven?
or just something like it
thats saved for the unworthy
I have a million and One questions
to ask my God
However i know when i finally get the answers
it will be more than too late
because i wil be aking them at either
heaven's or hell's gate

miscommunication

she was so naive
she didint recognize
his afftection to be
disguised manipulation
his love to be
well dressed deception
until it was too late
all the signs were there
but she was too blind to see
that he was in seek
of only one thing

Jigsaw

and she was left alone
to pick up the pieces of the puzzle
that her life used to be
the only problem is
pieces were missing
all those essential corner pieces
that made solving her puzzle
more than easy
had been stolen
stripped from the box called her heart
and shredded into a million pieces
leaving her in a state of confusion forvever
how can she get through her jigsaw
without the corner pieces
where does she go from here?
the only answer
is to start within
and begin reconstructing the nucleus of her life
indeed this will take time
but blessings come wth patience
so she has no choice
but to adhere and be patient
as she works her way
fom the inside out
piece by piece
they begin to connect
and as her picture
becomes clear
it is obvious
that the picture
being formed is more beautiful
than the one before

the cycle

The worst thing to say is
"it will never happen to me"
because chances are it will
its such a blow to confidence
when someone who believes they are invincible
finds out that they are not
being forced into vulnerabilty is the worst part
living with a fear that you never had before
dealing with the fashbacks and all the other bushit that comes along with it
all because you were hurt
and the person who hurt you was most likely hurt in the same way
hurt people hurt people
it's a vicous cycle
with no end in sight.